If love could have saved you.

WHAT A YEAR!





It's been a rollercoaster, to say the least. On Wednesday 24th November 2010 we found out we were having twins, on Tuesday 21st December we found out we were to lose one to Anencephaly- a fatal birth defect that meant our baby would either die in the womb, be still born or die shortly after birth. which was a danger to the other twin, so we were given the choice to have a "selective reduction" of the anencephalic twin. A month or so later when we found out the sex (two boys, named only hours later) we were threatened with Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome, where they tried to tell us to stop Christopher's heart- no thanks.

By now my bump was getting bigger and it was being pictured to show to those from the other side of the world, and of course their special story. I was "meeting" people all over the United States and a few from England, Ireland, and of course Switzerland, where a true hero resides, Monika Jacquier...
Monika is the administrator of the website "anencephaly.info". Two weeks after we got the diagnosis of our baby, I googled it and it came up with images that shocked me. But after visiting Monika's site I was able to see pictures of anencephalic babies with their hats on, and off. They are all beautiful, so loved and celebrated. Proud parents send their stories to Monika to share with the world, and to promote the decision to carry their babies to full term, or as long as their bodies would let them.
There is the option to induce early also, (please do not mistake this for a termination) at any stage of the pregnancy. These parents love their child just as much as the parents that carry to term, they just cannot go through with the pregnancy knowing their child will die, for some it is the only option given, which is wrong of the doctor. The parents should always know their options.
I am proud of the decisions I made, and I'm lucky enough that Lee totally agreed with me on everything, and we decided it all together. We didn't see eye to eye through my pregnancy really, but on the important things we put our differences aside. We were apart more than we were together, but that has made us stronger. Lee proposed to me in October, we are looking to move in together next year :-). We often talk of Christopher, and we love and miss him so much. Honestly, if love could have saved you... you would have lived forever...